Thoughts

I hate my body, all the time. I know, I know, I should feel blessed that I have enough body organs and all but it's not enough to make me love my body. I always feel like my shoulder bones are too narrow, hips too wide but no booty, breasts non- existent, hair constantly frizzy and I always have to tie them up. Also, I feel my eyes are too bulging, eyebrow-less, small, flat nose and bla bla bla. I take things very seriously when people make remarks about my body because I hate it. When people praised me I won't believe them because 1) The compliment is coming from my parents, they are supposed to love me. 2) The compliment is from my best friend, she will comfirm say I look good. Deep down, I know I am not beautiful or pretty or anything. I'm plain, ordinary and nobody, nobody will actually look at me and think "wow, this girl is pretty." It's not that I'm vain, but it will certainly be nice if people think of you that way. It will be the best feeling ever if the man you love thinks of you that way but nope, never happens. I have always envy beautiful, curvy girls, blessed with good looks and beautiful bodies. I wish that I can be like them, as superficial as this sounds. People say I have good brains, and that it is better than good looks any day, but then, in the end, they always prefer those good- looking ones. Maybe I am desperate for attention because I always feel like nobody really pay attention or care about me other than my family. I always overthink though and I'm having this moody issue now that's why I'm writing this, just to pour out my thoughts. Well, whatever.

Catching up with Courtney

Yesterday, my cousin, Courtney came over to visit me and to stay a night at my house. We then decided to go for supper and then watch a movie. We went to Subang SS15 and we decided to try Morningwood's cheese cakes. Morningwood is a cafe I went the other day and I have been wanting to try their cheesecakes so this is the perfect time because my cousin loves cheese cakes too haha.

She chose a peach cheese cake and I chose a peanut butter chocolate cake because I was afraid that the cheese cake won't taste good and I actually wasn't fond of cheese cakes. If I eat too much I will feel like gagging. Okay I know this sounds contradicting but I only wanted to try Morningwood's cheese cake because many people say the cheese cakes are good lol. I ordered a green tea with jasmine flowers and Courtney ordered a mocha. This supper costed RM45, pretty expensive for just supper. 

No kidding, the cheese cake was good, then the peaches on top of the cake gave the cake a sweet taste. No feeling of gagging. Haha. My peanut butter chocolate cake had a very heavy taste of peanut butter. It's like putting a spoon into a jar of peanut butter and then eating it just like that. It was good but it was too much for me to finish. 

The food that we ordered. 

After that we went to Sunway Pyramid to watch Pitch Perfect 2. Yay! I've been waiting ages to watch that movie. The movie was awesome, definitely beyond my expectations. Fat Amy is a very lovable character hahaha and the movie is full of jokes, dirty jokes lol. I was sorry to see the movie come to an end. =( 

Dinner at Morningwood

It has been a long time since I last met up with Asvin Kumar, a friend from my hometown. We decided to meet up for dinner and we chose a popular cafe known as Morningwood in SS15 Subang Jaya.

My friend and my tea

This cafe is warm and cosy, with orange lighting like hotels hahaha However, the place is a little small but it's okay la. I saw Jared Lee, one of this cafe's founder and also a famous youtuber in Malaysia. There was no sign of Reuben Kang( also a co- founder) though if not I sure take photo with him because he so short and cute.
Heheh.

After I read the menu, i chose a beef bacon sandwich. The name is Bacon Bacon, because apparently according to the menu, everything is cuter when said twice lol. For my drink i chose rose tea with french vanilla. I feel like ordering coffee just to have some nice coffee art on my coffee but i don't really like coffee la so yeah.

My bacon bacon sandwich!

My sandwich contained 3 big slices of bacon,so generous right? And it tasted really good that bacon. Nom nom! The fries normal lo, outside anywhere can get. Kinda pricey though, RM17 for a sandwich. My tea costed RM11 and I don't know how to describe the taste lol. My friend ordered pasta, also RM17 and  the name's Yellow pasta if not mistaken. I only asked him whether taste good or not. He said good so should be good lo. His milkshake was RM14, kind of expensive la for poor people like me heheh.

Yellow pasta

I had a nice time catching up with my friend yesterday, recalling a lot of embarassing moments and laughing like crazy hahahhaa.

This cafe is worth coming back again, a lot of food and beverage choices. I want to try their cheesecake next time because it looks really awesome. I regret that I didn't take more photos of the cafe interiors and all because too excited to talk to my friend la sorry but the cafe looks really nice one. Okay la that's all for now. Byebye!

Must take ootd because I wore wedges yesterday so don't want to waste my effort

We both looking awkward because malu

My Best Friend

So, tonight I suddenly decided to try blogging. I need a place to write, rant and rave about things and also to store some of the wonderful moments in my life. I wondered what I should write for my first blog post and I asked my best friend. She asked me to write about her, lol, so self- centred. =P But anyway, because I do not have anything better to write about now, so yeah I am going to do a shout out for my one and only best girl friend aka Yang Chi Yi. lol wtf. 

Ah yi ( I always call her with this name, it's more personal heheh) is the one on the left, wearing a blue top. 

I have known her since secondary school so we have been friends for 7- 8 years. In the beginning, we weren't that close. We do hang out and all, sometimes two of us, and sometimes in a group, but I won't tell her about my feelings, my sorrows, worries yada yada. We talked about clothes, food, gossip about people like the mean girls we are hahahah but not much about personal feelings. To be honest, I used to think that she wouldn't understand me as she wasn't particularly a warm or understanding person back then. I don't talk about my boyfriend problems with her because I thought she wouldn't understand and it will be useless. She was always against my boyfriends anyway lol but I have always felt that ever since Ah yi has a bf, she became more understanding about boy-girl problems hahahah lol. 

As years passed by and we went to different colleges, I began to realise the true meaning of friendship. I have many friends with me all the time but they are not the type where I can be myself when I am with them nor can I share my thoughts and feelings with them. I go to bed at night feeling lonely. I keep my feelings to myself most of the time even when I'm hurting like crazy at times. And somehow, I began to confide in Ah Yi all the time. She too, confide in me more. Too bad we are not studying in the same university, but at least we are studying in the same city, so we can meet more often. Yay! 

A picture of us parasailing in Penang. 

She's the only one whom I can talk about everything to and she knows everything about me. Every time I encounter problems, she will be there for me. When I'm feeling crappy, talking to her will immediately make me feel happier, even if it's just through whatsapp. We always have good times together. She has always been a good listener, always patient even when I keep repeating the same thing/problem to her over and over. She never judges my actions and decisions and will support me in whatever I do even though I make sucky decisions. She doesn't say "I told you so" hahahaha. She's the only one who will camwhore and take infinity number of selfies with me. All in all, she's like a sister I never have. Please r, we are not lesbians or anything. Both of us are perfectly straight lol. 

From wearing ugly outfits, having ugly haircuts, being geeky teenagers, and then to learning how to use make up, getting over heartaches and break ups, going to colleges, she has been there to pass these moments with me. We have seen each other grow up.  I hope one day, when we are both old and rich, we will still be laughing and gossiping about people in some high class cafes, hehhehheh reminiscing about good old times that we had together. I hope that we will not let our friendship end even if one day both of us are in different corners of the world, because I value you a lot, even if I do not tell you this very often and will definitely not tell you all these face to face hehehe. 

To more good times together.